~best friend~

Love, do u know how happy was I last night?

Do u know how happy I am to lastly cried,

to lastly feel relieved, to lastly feel loved again?

Do u know how hard is all this for me?

I tried my best, I really did.

I'm sorry, I had to tell him it was over between me and you.

I can't do this any longer. I can't keep on pretending.

I couldn't lie to his eyes, I had to depend on him now.

He told me everything's gonna be fine between us.

That you shall be back; truth is he's lying!

I know he was just trying to please me, as usual.

But I know, there was nothing fine.

Through time like this, I wonder..

Why have u not even once tried to get to know him?

Do u know I've held on through our relationship,

all because of him, he made me realize things.

Times when u hurt me, times when I knew what I wasn't suppose to.

He was all here for me, coaxing me to always believe in u.

Why?why?why?

I'm so jealous, over him.

He has the greatest partner, and I'm left here all alone.

I'm so stupid, I said that to myself everytime.

I wish u always realized what me and him are all about.

I love u sayang, not him. Don't u know that?

Between me and him, yes I know I can't leave him.

He's my true friend, and the only one has never hurt me.

He's the only one I could ever trusted, and never judged me.

He's there every single time my heart breaks,

because I always meet the so called wrong guys.

He was even there through my happiness with u.

He believed I'm so madly in love with u,

that's why he needed to care so u won't hurt me.

If only u once sit and listen.

I've never loved him, as much as I did to u.

Sayang, why?why? I can't stop asking that.

Now u left me, I'm lucky he's here to make me go through this pain.

As usual, he'll be here, the "one ring" guy, is that fair?

But to tell u, this is what it called FRIENDSHIP.

He wanted to confronted u, I guess there's no need.
I told him, if u wanted to trust me.

U'll believe since first i said, but u don't. Right?

U always judge me, when truth is u're the one keep on cheating.

U think I didn't know all that u did?

U think I didn't know what u've been up to.

But all through it, I blinded my eyes.

Just to save this little love I'm getting from u.

How I wish I could just slap u in the face,

for all the time u made me cry.

How I wish I could just beat u up,

for all the time u've been lying but u blamed me.

How I wish I could've just killed u.

But how do I do that, tell me just how.

How do I hate someone I love dearly?

I wish u were him, he was my bestfriend.

He is someone who'll always be beside me.

Too bad he wasn't the guy I love.

Do u know every single time u accused me and him,

I break into tears.

If only u see what I see everyday.

He truly loves the gf, she's the most luckiest girl in this world.

I want to be like her, but I want him to be you.

I want us, not me and him, US!!!

U don't know things he said to me,

U don't know things he ask me to do for u.

U just don't know.

Even till this very second, he's still supporting me.

on our relationship, how do i find a friend like that?

How I wish u knew all this, but u DON'T!

I'm happy for last night, I had a shoulder to cry over u.

I'm trying my best now, to really get over u.

I'll soon leave all of this, to forget u.

I'm also leaving him, and all my loved ones, for u.

It's not fair, I have to do every single thing.

every single time, because of you.

But it's okay, you're all worth it, 

even we didn't have much time together.

You're my sweetest drug, Love!

P/S: "Goodbye" by Air Supply.

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try.
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize.
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life.

I don't want to let you down, I don't want to lead you on

I don't want to hold you back, from where you might belong.
You would never ask me why, my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself, than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to say but good-bye.
You deserve the chance at the kind of love.
I'm not sure I'm worthy of, losing you is painful to me.