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Why does love has to be broken all the time?
Why cant human just love till the end of time, why?
Why does he seems to be just fine without me?
Why everything is so easy on his side?
Why did he impacted me this strong?
Till I cant breathe, till I cant continue living?
Today, exactly one week after he went away.
A week without him, and all through it with pains and tears.
Never once i mentioned to anybody that our love has come to end
Maybe I cant, maybe I'm embarassed, I dont know.
I dont hate him, at all. Infact this love grow greater each day.
All my life I've been praying to meet a guy like him,
now I've found one, he left me, with nothing!
This whole week, without fail, I go online every single minute,
I hang on to my phone every single second,
Wishing and hoping I could hear from him.
Sadly, he's pretty fine without me, he dont miss me.
Not at all, as I hope he would have been.
Why did he forget me? How did this doesnt affect him?
I keep on asking and asking. It's just not fair.
It wasnt me searching for him, he came out of nowhere,
He opened my heart and now he went but he locked it up.
Last night, he chatted me up on facebook, for the first time.
Unfortunately, only to show how fine he was.
Not being the guy that promised to stay with me forever.
Fuuny he still remember to download something I ask long before.
Guess I should be happy, at least he remembered!
On that second onwards, I set my mind up
"Nana! He wont care anymore, stop dreaming! Focus and move on!"
But how can I do that, when I still see him everywhere?
when everyone's around still asking about him.
I don't know how long will I keep on pretending. Sigh!
Nobody understand this heartache, nobody will.
I have reason for keeping silent, I hope one day he'll understand.
I wish him a happy life, if he have found someone new.
I wish she could take care of him, as I would if I had the chance.
Although I know, she would never able to love him like I do
Not anyone, not anybody can.
I know he's in pain, I feel every sadness and emptiness he feels.
But how do I help him, how can I sayang?
I pray God will grant him good life, enough of suffering him please.
I pray he will be healthy, I'm praying from far for u dear.
I'm so worried now you're sick, I wish I was there!
My prayers will always help u get through your days.
My love will always keep u safe and warm.
No matter our distance, no matter what time, I'm always with u.
But u wont notice it, because u've deleted me.
And I'll remain deleted, hiding far fom u.
Later when I'm gone, please don't cry for me.
As I couldn't bare seeing your tears.
But please be happy of our memories, the love we once cherish.
Because that is the only things that's keeping me alive now.
Reminiscing the times I spent with you, beautifully.
I was truly happy, Love, I am.
and I feel terrible I never had the chance to say this to you.
The saddest part, part I regret most was
I was really dreaming that someday I will be your wife, to have my perfect family
I was really planning to go see the world with you, on vacations
I was really working hard each night and day to get us going in future, so we have tons of money and we dont have to worry about any.
I was really hoping that our love will be blessed, and I will be healed
I was really starting to plan all this, the day when u said,
"Are u ready to start your life with me?"
And now what's left, nothing, only my regrets.
Love, may we meet hereafter, or in the next life.
Because even if I die, my love remains.
Till we meet again ;'(
