Hello blog.
I will never ever forget last night, NEVER!
After almost a month, I just can't hold myself any longer.
This pain, this whole not letting you know the truth is KILLING!
I just wish I could fly him here this very second,
and ease all this worryness that shatterred.
So I decided to ring him, UNBELIEVABLE!
At first, he didn't pick. I thought he hated me.
Then as usual, tears started to flow,
I was terribly feeling regret upon everything.
But then, a few mins after that, he responded.
So I just put every single thing aside,
I don't need any medication no longer.
He was the best drug i could have.
and there we go, spending a wonderful 20 mins conversation.
There were nothing much to talk though,
I was scared, nervous and glad at the same time.
He might think I sounded silly
As I do think I talk all rubbish to him
Haha, sayang u know me right?
From those talk we had, I just knew it
My love for him has never faded even a tiny bit,
and I'm certain about the way he feels too.
Maybe both of us are egoistic
or maybe just don't know how to fix things.
Being so far away from you now,
made me realize I did stupid things on you.
I should just let you know the truth, right?
So that you'll be here, together with me.
Going through all this terrible pains together.
I'm certain what you said before were all true.
Now I realize, Baby you're just so BEAUTIFUL!
I've been looking through all the pics,
comparing when ur with me and ur with her,
a picture doesn't lie, right?
I know she won't make you happy as I am right?
I know sayang, I just know it.
I know you're glad too, to talk with me, right?
So why don't you throw your so-called-EGO,
and start making the right thing you should have done long ago.
that's the only thing I wish now.
P/s: "If", the regrets in me.
If I’d never met you, I wouldn’t feel the pain
Of losing your sweet love; I wouldn’t feel insane.
But if I’d never met you, I wouldn’t know the pleasure
of ecstasy’s warm gifts & memories to treasure.
Now moving on with life, I force a wistful grin,
Questioning what went wrong & wondering what might’ve been
Is it really true our love is over now?
Can it be another time for us to say goodbye?
Too soon, it’s much too soon, My love, for me
You smile with ease, but I can only sigh.
We’ve shared our lives and given so much love
I can’t believe we’re really going to part
you’re moving toward a new life without me
I’m left with scars upon my broken heart.
If only I had done the things that keep true love alive,
I wouldn’t have to acknowledge now that our love cant survive.
If only I had described to you the joy you brought to me,
Instead of bringing you complaints, u wouldn’t have set me free.
If I had loved you stronger, If I had appreciated you,
We would have lasted longer, much much longer.
If I had often said to you, "It’s you whom I adore,"
perhaps you’d still be with me now.
If only I had treated you as if we were best friends,
If I had told you more, I wouldn’t be alone in grief,
As our faded love finally come to an end.
If only I didn’t have to say, "If only, My love, if only,"
I wouldn’t be all by myself; so sorry, sad and lonely.
Only now that you are so gone,
I realize how much you really meant to me.
My lost is wide as a starless night sky & deep as a stormy sea.
I miss the comfort of your sweet love, your absolute devotion.
Now I’m a fountain of endless tears, pool of sad emotion.
He tell me I should move on with life, that time will heal my pain.
I smile & nod & agree with him, while I slowly go insane.
Go on now, if you must; I’ll get along.
How much does this hurts, I don’t want you to know.
I’ll set you free without inducing guilt
But as you leave, the silent tears will start flowing.
I can’t be mad; I love you way too much.
I’ll hide my sadness now, so you can’t tell.
Sweet happiness is what I wish for you.
Farewell my love, I hope that you fare well.
